In a couple of months I’ll be celebrating my one year anniversary of publishing Present Perfect. Its been an incredible year. But with all the blessings there have been down moments. Self-doubt is a sneaky bastard sometimes. One day you can be just fine, knowing exactly what you’re trying to achieve. Then without warning you feel your throat close up, your chest tighten, and as if you’re spinning your wheels. This has happened to me lately.
I can’t explain it. There are just times in a person’s life in which they second guess everything. Last week I lost focus. A long time ago I decided the type of author I wanted to be and the type of stories I wanted to tell. I want to write about important subjects that aren’t always dealt with. I want the reader’s experience to be all encompassing. I want them to get lost in my stories, feel the story in their hearts and souls. Maybe even open their eyes to a situation that they either didn’t know existed or had a preconceived notion about.
Noah’s story has been the biggest challenge for me. This is the last book in the series. I want to do the characters and their story justice. I want it to be a different book, not simply the first book told from Noah’s POV. I want to give them the proper thank you and goodbye. I don’t want to let my readers down. The people who have been so generous and kind in their support of me. I’ve hit writer’s block a handful of times during Presently Perfect. All last week, I told Jef at least once a day that I didn’t want to write anymore. I didn’t think I could do it. I mean why write? There are a ton of great books out for people to read. Why put myself through the stress? This is why.
“Wow, this book is still giving me pause…what a fabulous read.
I have this list of books that I call “life pondering & soul changing” Alison Bailey’s Present Perfect is on this list.” (Present Perfect)
“Hi Alison, I just finished reading Present Perfect & loved it 🙂. Your book reminded me of what happened to my son. My son is doing well, enjoying college/uni, in love with his lovely girlfriend & enjoying life.” (Present Perfect)
“I strongly identify with Mabry. Though I was not a self-harmer, was anorexic, which is just another kind of self-harming. Whether a cutter, anorexic, or bulimic, it all amounts to trying to find control in a confusing, at times over-whelming, world.” (Past Imperfect)
“i grew up with the same fears as Mabry everyone saying you are so much like your mom scared me a lot though never said so. but i am stronger than that always had a positive outlook on life. one thing it did living with the ups and downs taught me compassion for people with mental health issues so glad I read this book thank you Alison for the walk down memory lane.” (Past Imperfect)
“This book really affected me deeply. I have great admiration for authors who bring awareness to issues that are near and dear to their heart. Infinite stars for this book.” (Past Imperfect)